Allie and our children

  Courtesy to Annie Reed i looked into a site called recess's rainbow a few weeks ago.  See Annie has a daughter with DS and this site is an adoption center for children with DS and other serious illnesses.  Any who, I'm one of those who just cant leave well enough alone, so i clicked on the link.  Before i knew it i had looked at and read at least 30 children's profiles.  My heart went out to these kids, and for the parents like Jade and Annie who didn't think that being given a child with DS was a burden, but a blessing yet.  I was amazed at how many children were in this home, and many others like it.  The stories of these children were sad, and each one made your heart a little heaver.  I knew i needed to just close it, but i am stubborn so i kept going.  I clicked "next" then it happened...Allie.  Allie was the most precious little girl I've seen, with a very sad story to go along with her too cute photo.  Allie was HIV positive with a mother who had passed away, no father, and a grandmother who wanted nothing to do with her.  I know, your probably feeling like i did!  I spent the next few days pleading my case to Jon, begging for him to agree to get further information on her.  I wanted her to be ours.  Yes, I'm aware she's not a puppy, but i felt such a strong connection to her just from one photo and a brief description of her.  I got Jon just where i wanted him, and contacted the agency.  Jon's kind of a pushover!  I was surprised to get an email back so quickly.  I was soon hit by what everyone says "gods plan".  Allie just had a family commit to her, they life in California.  I spent the next 3 days crying every night about this.  I don't know why, maybe because I'm a women, maybe i really felt that strong for this little girl.  Once again, i cant leave well enough alone and i contacted the agency again.  I said this time that if anything fell threw with the family that was adopting Allie that i wanted to be the first to know.  I told her how strong i had felt about the little girl, and again, a fast response.  I am now following allies adoption threw with her new soon to be family.  I am still alittle sad, and can cry about this pretty easy, but am very happy for her.  I believe she would much rather grow up in California then a little podunk town!  Good for her i think!  In the mean time, my adoptive child search is over.  Weston and Kendi are plenty to handle anyway.  The other day Kendi told me she wants a baby, she still seems to think we can just run out to the store and pick one off the shelf!  She also is begging her dad to marry her, not sure where that came from but it's kinda cute in its own.  Weston just got into the stars program, and were totally excited about that.  I'm just hoping the teacher doesn't call because he's under the table eating glue!  So I'll end this one a heart felt thank you, Thank you to all the parents who look at their children as a blessing, no matter the circumstance.  Thank you for powering threw the challenges of parenthood, and not sticking them in an institution like Allie was.  Children are a blessing which seem to be overlooked sometimes.  I think our children are proof that god is here, that he cares enough to give us someone to give all we've got to, to be able to have the opportunity to love someone so much with out judging.  We were given a gift, a very special one, we should celebrate it everyday, even when we feel like ringing their necks! 

The Big FAT ugly truth

As promised I'm keeping this honest, even though at times it will be a bit embarrassing to myself.  I'm starting a journey, one that I'll hopefully be proud of in the end, so i figured i may as well go ahead and share this with you guys.  Weight is something everyone has struggled with at some point in their life, either your too skinny or too fat.  When i was a teenager, it was a struggle for me to gain weight, although i ate like a horse.  I remember my mother telling me "it'll catch up to you some day"  i never thought it would.  I can also recall going back to school my eight grade year after summer brake and a girl telling me how much better i looked cause i had actually gained some weight.  When i turned 16, my drivers licence said i weighted 107!!  Back then, it didn't mean that much to me, 107 was good, right?  Not really, now when someone weighs less then 130 people seem to talk about how they must have an eating disorder, but more then 170 and they have the same problem (eating too much).  Why?  I believe we can thank society for this, just open a magazine or turn on the TV.  If their too skinny their ill, if their too big there ill, but if their perfect well, their perfect!  What is this perfect weight?  If i put in my height and age it tells me i should be approximately 130!  That's what i weighed when i was 3 months pregnant with Kendi!  It's amazing how easy it is to gain that weight, yet so hard to lose it.  Once i started to pack it on, it didn't stop!  Seriously, you may say "yeah but you were pregnant" true, but the day i delivered Weston i weighed in at 222!  That's a HUGE difference!  So from there i should of went way down, instead i went a LITTLE down.  I knew i had stayed "large" none of my cloths fit, i hate shopping now, which used to be one of my favorite things to do!  I have those rolls and hang overs in places i never in my dreams imagined I'd have.  You were right mom, it caught up!  I get undressed and kendi says "mom your belly is fat"  or "why is your butt so bumpy?"  It's okay to giggle a little there, it's true!  I've been asked if I'm pregnant again because my stomach just keeps growing.  This sucks!  I keep trying new diets, even joined weight watchers, I've lost it, but gained it right back!  I've got a problem with sticking with things sometimes, but this time I'm getting in, and not quitting till i get out of this body!  This is going to be hard, but i believe i can do it.  I want to, just as much as i need too.  I refuse to be one of those big ladies who has to ride the rascals threw walmart because I'm too big to walk!  Really, that's just sad!  Today i weigh 207, that's right, i just posted publicly that i weigh 207!!  Remember i said i was at 222 when i had my son, who will be 3 May 2nd.  That's really bad folks!  This has to end, and it will.  I plan to track my progress and what I'm doing in my blogs, because telling people about your weight isn't easy, so now you know how large i am, i want you to know how hard I'm trying and how small i can be!  I'm sure tomorrow I'll regret posting my weight, hell i probably will as soon as i hit "post" but whats done is done!  This may have bored you or shocked you or made you even think I'm a slob, but again as promised I'm keeping this honest.  Call me what you want, but eventually I'll be a hott momma! 

Every good story has a start

Every good story has a start, a beginning, the first chapter, here is mine!

I'm Chelsi (the me) ill be turning 26 on June 1st, although i sometimes forget how old i am and even when my birthday is.  I was born right here in IL, and will probably die here too.  I hopped a gray hound bus to Florida as a teen and really thought I'd make a life for my self down there, but a few months into it i got a packet of stuff from home containing pictures of my niece.  I came home for a "visit" and never looked back!  I wasn't aware then, but now believe my niece was the real start of my life! Sure you say, a toddler is the "start of your life" YES this is true, and will prove its self again later.  I lived a crazy life at times as a young adult, i was a free spirit, felt no responsibility.  Theres a country song that i hear on the radio that is how i feel about my life today.  "every chance that i did or didn't take, all the nights i went to far all the (boys) that broke my heart"  Sure, go on and laugh but i said I'd be honest in here, so you get to see just how corkey i am!  Okay, now back on track!  I married my best friend on August 2006, his name is Jonathan (the farmer) he is a hottie!  No really, he's good looking, but further more my soul mate.  I love him very much, don't get me wrong we have a typical marriage, we fight, but in the end were snuggled up next to each other every night.  He works with his dad (Pete) and Stu fox, which makes up Fox and Dove farming.  He works a little too hard i think, but I'm proud of him non the less!  In his hopes to one day take over the "dove" side of Fox and dove, he takes his job pretty serious, and all in all seems to really love what he does.  In the year 2007, January 22nd,  i gave birth to a little girl, her name is Kendi (one of the 3) she is now 4, and the funniest toddler I've ever met. For those of you who are doing the math, that made me ruffly 3 months pregnant when Jon and i got married!  I know, NO NO, but it's not 1840 any more, and its not that uncommon, pluse it worked for us, cause we did it again on May 2nd when we gave birth to our son.  Weston is now 2 (3 next week) and the 2nd of the 3.  So then it was the Farmer and me and our 2!  We have the best of both worlds with a boy and a girl, and boy are they different (that's another story) but the farmer thought we needed something else, now before you go and get all crazy thinking i have a 4 year old 3 year old and a new born, the third of our three, drum roll please........Norman, the cat!  Gotcha didn't i?  Well unless you know Me personally!  Yes, We adopted Norman, and he is only 2 months younger then Weston.  We all live just out of town, and love it!  Are their more kids or cats in our future, NO!  I love where were at, having two toddlers is a challenge, which you'll all hear about in later posts, but i wouldn't take any of it back.  Maybe Norman...yeah probably Norman!  I'm sure I've rambled long enough here so I'll just stop while I'm ahead.  I'll post pictures of everyone as soon as my teacher (Janie Fox) comes back from her vacation and shows me how to get this really going!  You should check out her blog too, if you haven't already, she is hilarious!  Janie fox talks is hers.  Okay as promised, I'll shut up now.  More later!  

I'm joining the new age!

Hi everyone!

iv decided to start my very own blog, iv got alot to say, alot of stories to share, and alot of free time!  i promise to keep this blog honest, silly at times and sad at others.  This is my life, and i'm welcoming you into it.  I'm not really sure yet what i'm doing, but i'll get it figured out soon. I just wanted to welcome you, and let the blogging begin!