Allie and our children

  Courtesy to Annie Reed i looked into a site called recess's rainbow a few weeks ago.  See Annie has a daughter with DS and this site is an adoption center for children with DS and other serious illnesses.  Any who, I'm one of those who just cant leave well enough alone, so i clicked on the link.  Before i knew it i had looked at and read at least 30 children's profiles.  My heart went out to these kids, and for the parents like Jade and Annie who didn't think that being given a child with DS was a burden, but a blessing yet.  I was amazed at how many children were in this home, and many others like it.  The stories of these children were sad, and each one made your heart a little heaver.  I knew i needed to just close it, but i am stubborn so i kept going.  I clicked "next" then it happened...Allie.  Allie was the most precious little girl I've seen, with a very sad story to go along with her too cute photo.  Allie was HIV positive with a mother who had passed away, no father, and a grandmother who wanted nothing to do with her.  I know, your probably feeling like i did!  I spent the next few days pleading my case to Jon, begging for him to agree to get further information on her.  I wanted her to be ours.  Yes, I'm aware she's not a puppy, but i felt such a strong connection to her just from one photo and a brief description of her.  I got Jon just where i wanted him, and contacted the agency.  Jon's kind of a pushover!  I was surprised to get an email back so quickly.  I was soon hit by what everyone says "gods plan".  Allie just had a family commit to her, they life in California.  I spent the next 3 days crying every night about this.  I don't know why, maybe because I'm a women, maybe i really felt that strong for this little girl.  Once again, i cant leave well enough alone and i contacted the agency again.  I said this time that if anything fell threw with the family that was adopting Allie that i wanted to be the first to know.  I told her how strong i had felt about the little girl, and again, a fast response.  I am now following allies adoption threw with her new soon to be family.  I am still alittle sad, and can cry about this pretty easy, but am very happy for her.  I believe she would much rather grow up in California then a little podunk town!  Good for her i think!  In the mean time, my adoptive child search is over.  Weston and Kendi are plenty to handle anyway.  The other day Kendi told me she wants a baby, she still seems to think we can just run out to the store and pick one off the shelf!  She also is begging her dad to marry her, not sure where that came from but it's kinda cute in its own.  Weston just got into the stars program, and were totally excited about that.  I'm just hoping the teacher doesn't call because he's under the table eating glue!  So I'll end this one a heart felt thank you, Thank you to all the parents who look at their children as a blessing, no matter the circumstance.  Thank you for powering threw the challenges of parenthood, and not sticking them in an institution like Allie was.  Children are a blessing which seem to be overlooked sometimes.  I think our children are proof that god is here, that he cares enough to give us someone to give all we've got to, to be able to have the opportunity to love someone so much with out judging.  We were given a gift, a very special one, we should celebrate it everyday, even when we feel like ringing their necks!